Beautiful provoke to harass me to live in praise from childhood, this get to thank my parents, thank CREATOR, it delineates a beautiful arc on my body, bright eye is KIND to gaze at, innate beauty, everyone says I grow pretty.
“Youth is a priceless treasure, you should cherish it.”
A relative had this to say.
I was young and didn’t fully understand it, but it made me feel proud to know that I had something many people dream of.
Since middle school, there have been a lot of people continue to write me the so-called love letters, one by one, between the lines are full of praise for my appearance.
I opened a few and then ignored them.
Still, people write about it, and some even give it to me in person.
These things have affected my study to some extent. Some people speak ill of me behind my back without any response, which makes me very upset.
There was a boy who kept writing to me and stopped me on the way home.
Can’T, I said this matter to parents, then my parents come out to look for his parents, did not think of his parents unreasonable, say my parents gave birth to me this seductive spirit, all day to deceive the boy is not good study, my parents angry several days eat not to eat.
I didn’t want to be a beautiful woman, I had to show those people that I was not a pretty face to live, I made up my mind, head into the book, no longer pay attention to those things.
Time pays off and I was admitted to a key university.
The university campus is likened to the ivory tower, in many people’s eyes is a paradise of love, because all are adults, so love is more popular.
Some people ask me to go to the movies, and others just shout my name downstairs like the Seven young masters in “A Family of Gold Dust”, which I treat with silence.
One weekend soon after the opening of the school, I went to a fellow township there to play, on the way back to school, two drunken men blocked me, with a ferocious smile, mouth said dirty dirty words, hands also want to touch me.
I shouted, and the people who heard the news made the two stinking men run away quickly.
This near-miss experience made me have some psychological variation, I have a very extreme view of men, feel that they are always naked desire to show.
One day when I was riding the bus in a crowded new dress, I noticed a man behind me clinging to me so tightly that I gave him a warning elbow. The man took no notice and moved closer to me. I could clearly feel some part of his body pressing hard against my buttocks.
Shame made me get off the train before I arrived at the station. When I found something sticky and dirty on the skirt, I was nauseating. I rushed to a clothing store to buy a pair of pants and threw the beautiful new skirt into the trash can.
This harassment in broad daylight made me very resistant to sex that I had not yet experienced.
So, I am cold all the time, do not accept any man’s favor.
After many boys hit the wall, they gave me many nicknames, what “thorn rose”, “ice beauty”…
I ignored it and just buried myself in my studies.
During my four years of college, I spent almost all of my time in the classroom and library.
Concentration on my studies enabled me to stay on with honors when I graduated.
Beautiful let me find the best husband Zhuang Zihong is the alumni of the previous several sessions, know him is in the centennial celebration period, “returned to the sea” his aura is uncommon, the charm of a successful man.
He fell in love with me, too.
“You have the elegance and reserve of Oriental women, which is a traditional beauty that is not often seen.”
This is what Chuang Zihong said to me the second time we met.
His admiration was just right, and I felt the door of my locked heart slowly opening.
We fell in love naturally.
Zhuang Zihong has a company of his own with a cloud of beautiful employees.
However, through observation, I found that he was a gentleman, and his relationship with the beautiful women was only between employer and employee, not the usual affair.
He was not the kind of man I hated, so I fell in love without hesitation.
As our dating time increased, it was inevitable that we would have some intimate contact. More than once, Zhuang Zihong’s eyes showed longing, but when it came to the crunch, my subconscious would urge me to stop his further behavior.
“Well, I’m going to make you my perfect bride.”
“Even if people say we are the most corny bride and groom in the 21st century, I will wait until that day,” Zhuang said.
Finally ushered in the wedding night, although my desire has been Zhuang Zihong’s gentle and delicate caress tease up, but, I can not and his naked opposite, I covered my body with a quilt, later I asked Zhuang Zihong to turn off the light.
Although it is in the dark, but we are very excited, we each other groping their respective bodies, everything is so mysterious, we call each other’s name, each other reached the world’s most beautiful mountain.
I lay there, all limp, and congratulated myself that I had made love to him without any mental obstacles.
At that moment, Zhuang Zihong turned on the light, and he carefully wiped the body fluids on my body and the sheets with a towel. My eyes stared at his hands, but my mind turned over, and soon I seemed to smell something like nausea.
Zhuang Zihong hugged me and comforted me gently, but I felt that he smelled fishy all over my body, so I broke away from his arms and went to the bathroom to throw up.
This happened more than once, Zhuang Zihong did not pay attention to it.
“Just get used to it,” he said, with some understatement.
I didn’t tell him about my sexual harassment. I didn’t want him to worry about having a beautiful wife.
To buy a house and get married, Zhuang Zihong wouldn’t let me touch a cent of my savings.
“This is a successful man’s business, you can relax and be a wife.”
Zhuang Zihong said arrogantly.
After we got married, he didn’t have to pay all the expenses, and he gave me a credit card: “Buy the latest clothes, go to the best beauty parlor, you must always maintain your beautiful face.”
I think I am the happiest woman in the world. I have no worries about food and clothing, and my husband is kind and considerate.
Zhuang Zihong is not only kind to me, he also bought my parents and brother two very spacious houses, every holiday, he gave my family a lot of red envelopes.
His generous, let my family not say he is good, every time back home, parents said to let me treat him well.
Beautiful, let me finally realize that I still vase became Mrs. Zhuang, I thought there would be no harassment like in the past, but I thought wrong.
Zhuang Zihong often took me to some cocktail parties, where the attendees were celebrities in the business world. The people gave mixed looks: “Zhuang Zihong is really lucky to have married such a beautiful woman.”
When Zhuang Zihong went to the bathroom, a man of his age leaned over and said this. His eyes looked straight at my chest, which disgusted me. I said a couple of perfunctory words and was about to leave, but Zhuang Zihong came back from the bathroom.
He introduced the man to me as his partner in recent years, who had helped him a lot in business.
He asked me to talk to this man, but he went somewhere else.
As if I had got a pass, the man spoke even more recklessly. I was on pins and needles, and I blamed Zhuang Zihong for taking me to such a cocktail party and meeting such a man.
The man then rubbed his foot against me under the table. I couldn’t bear it, so I got up and left.
After that, Zhuang Zihong asked me to go to those occasions, I refused.
“Do me a favor, will you?
You see everyone else…”
“I don’t want to give you face, SON Hong, I can’t stand those people’s eyes, like to eat me.”
“That shows you have plenty of charm, my pretty wife.”
Zhuang Zihong looked triumphant.
“Aren’t you jealous?
Don’t you think those people are being disrespectful to you by taking advantage of me?”
“I don’t care about his very angry,” I eat what son of vinegar, you have a master, those people drooling over you, that they are not as good as me, didn’t get a jump on you pick home.
This tone of his remarks made me feel very harsh, but I could not find the right words to refute him.
The behavior of the man at the banquet, and Zhuang Zihong’s indifference, made my mood drop, every time I was very passive to accept him, sometimes he acted too aggressively hurt me, I just quietly endure, not as in the past so delicate tricks to punish him.
After giving birth, I was a little out of shape, but Zhuang Zihong was more concerned than I was. He bought a very expensive exercise machine and made me practice twice a day.
Every woman wants to be in shape all the time, and I happily accept that.
After careful care and exercise, I soon recovered the original graceful figure.
And, after I gave birth, I found myself less averse to sex, with a constant longing.
However, gradually, I found that Zhuang Zihong did not ask for touching like in the past, sometimes I take the initiative to signal, he also with a variety of excuses to perfunctory me.
I thought he was having an affair, but after careful investigation I found no trace of it.
“Zi Hong, is it me or your body…
?”
I couldn’t resist asking him. I thought we had to talk, or our marriage would be in trouble.
“No, you’re fine, I’m fine, but…
The book says sex affects your looks, and I don’t want you to get old too soon, so let’s keep it to a minimum.”
What Chuang Zihong said surprised me. I had never heard of such a thing.
Do less, do less, I do not complain much, I am not so keen on sex.
One night, I was woken up by Zhuang Zihong, who was masturbating.
“Son Hong, you WHY bother, I am your wife.”
I say this.
“I just want you to stay beautiful forever.
A successful husband and a beautiful wife prove that I am a successful man.
Zhuang Zihong’s words let my heart lake set off waves, originally, from beginning to end, I am just a vase, is a sign of a man’s success.
Sexual harassment before and after marriage, as well as Zhuang Zihong’s various attitudes in sexual life, made me have a very complex psychology towards sex, I long for sex but hate the vicious, repellent sex, Zhuang Zihong thought that the reasonable once a week sex is very disgusted, for this reason, the conflict between us intensified day by day.
I don’t want to be like this, many times, I often wonder, is beautiful for a woman, is also a heavy burden?
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